|Adaptations (adaptations) wrote,|
@ 2008-09-24 04:23:00
|Entry tags:||kate bosworth, pb|
Examples for rebecca_klein A Hymn to Her (Bio)
//001 - i'm a mother
I'm losing my mind here. I'm sick with worry, and I have no idea what to do with myself. My six-year-old daughter, Lily, was kidnapped yesterday morning from Deck Five. One Russian man grabbed her and took her while another one, Andre something or other, held me at gunpoint and threw me to the ground. I spent the day reporting the incident to the security on board the ship, but I have yet to hear any news. The men said I'd get my daughter back when they got the person they wanted. I don't have a clue what that means!
All I can think about is how terrified my little girl must be. How panicked. How she must be calling out for me, but I can't hear her, and I don't come! This is a mother's worst nightmare to have their child taken from them while they lie helpless on the ground. I thought I could do all right, keep it together, but I'm losing it. I have to thank Raife for calming me down last night and making me leave the Kids Fun Zone. I don't know what I would have done without you. Lose control, like I am now, maybe.
I just want Lily here with me. I want to be able to hold her in my arms and comfort her. I want her to feel safe, but she's not safe. She's with strangers. Who knows what those bastards are capable of anyway...
I just keep trying to imagine what I could have done differently. I should have protected my daughter like I'm supposed to. I should have fought harder for her and not stood frozen and weak. I have failed her. She's the most important person in my life, and I couldn't save her! I don't deserve her. I thanked the gods for her every day that she was with me. I never once forgot how lucky I am to have found her, but I'm unworthy. I'm a miserable excuse for a mother, and Lily would have been better off if I'd never got her. This is all my fault.
//002 - i'm wide awake
Like many people, I'm looking forward to being back on the Surprise. Things are going all right on the Sunset, but I'm ready to be done with it. Lily and I became quite fond of our own little cabin on the ship. It was our space, just the two of us. We had quite a routine that we followed every morning, which included jumping on the bed and listening to the radio after the alarm went off.
Here, we've got a roommate. All the singles were full with the regular staff, which is understandable. Unfortunately, the woman is a real piece of work. She's polite enough, at least to my face, but she's made it very clear that she hates children, which obviously I can't do anything about now. As time goes on, she's started dropping hints about Lily's crying in the night keeping her "awake at all hours." She's horrified that she keeps tripping over "cheap, plastic little toys." She even had the nerve to ask me if Lily really needs so many. But the icing on the cake was when she was on the phone with one of her girlfriends talking about me as if I wasn't even in the room. She went on about how anyone who devotes her life to motherhood is wasting oxygen, even if she's a working mom because everything becomes about the child. Then she spewed some nonsense about how "these people are just sleeping through their lives, not caring about anything significant or authentic."
I may not have gone to college, but I'm not an idiot. I know she was spouting off some "existentialism" thinking I wouldn't be able to understand what she was saying. Well, I do. I'm a mother, and I think that it's the most rewarding and meaningful role I could ever have in life. Just because I made different choices and haven't seen as much of the world as she has doesn't mean I'm asleep in my life, thank you.
Scenes for Becca
Writing Example 1, with ty_winters
Writing Example 2, with pipwhit, danitoriano, and lincoln_myers (also played by me)
Writing Example 3, with tammi
This character was dropped on 11/04/2008.
A Hymn to Her (Bio)